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so long adi never come on9.... because of exams!!!! but i didnt study..... :(... aiyo!!! even though i and her ok d.... i feel something very weird la!!!!! i cant take it anymore!!!!!!!!!! damn frustrating you know?? every day i school like every day in hell... I'm no more happy!!!! its like eeeeeeeeeeeereeeeeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrr!!! cant explain.... even though i look happy but i am not!!!!!! someone talk to me!!!!

ER!!!

today school was nice because got PJ!!!! yeah!!! but later it got worst.... today a new boy came to my class!!! he is so cute!!! haha...(i am not gay).... he so nice.... i thought i got back my friendship with her... but i guess it got worst!!!! and i lost my best ever friend..... he didnt want to talk to me today!!!! last time he taught me maths.... tell lame jokes but funny..... he use to care for me.... but today he didnt even want to sit beside me... i dont know wat i did la..... so far i lost 2 friends..... i guess i'm going to lose more...... she said i hurt her feelings but it was a joke.... last time i called alot of words also she didnt care but now she cares!!!!! WOW!! wat a transform!!! i cant understand...... THIS IS THE WORST EVER YEAR OF MY LIFE!!!!

life....

life sucks it is so depressing... life fucks us all from all direction... when u lose a friend u really lose them forever when tht happens you cant control ur emotion if tht happens everyone will call u weird and more of ur friends will leave you!!!! you will lose everything you ever cared and loved you will change from good to bad(i almost changed)then you dont ever want to live, you will try ur best to die.... when u try to run away from problems they will haunt you every corner of ur life.... at night u wont be able to sleep,study or eat...you will regret for wat u did to her.... once tht is over you will start to cry untill u run out of tears!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and u will be praying for the sun to rise!!!!!!!! at school you surely cant concernate cause ur emotions kills u!! then u will look at her and ask urself 'why did i do tht?' n the answer will be 'i dont know because it wasnt me who did tht' but u will feel guilty of doing it cause ppl wo dont know how to mind their business start to question you about wat u had done. then it starts!!! you will be alone in a place tht nobody looks or care and ur head will down,down,down and down! your heart will be borke like glass piece and cannot be fix anymore. u want to tell sorry but u wont you want to talk to her but u wont... then ppl dont care about ur feelings and dont care about u... only ur closest friend will be there but not for a long time.... ur family cant help u because they dont understand ur feel.... ur future will be destroyed as you cant focus on anything. THERE IS NEVER A SPECIAL FRIEND IN OUR lIVES!!! life has no meaning... life ha no option... why isnt there a world tht could decribe my feelings? there is never a perfect partner or friend(sorry guys) who could help u whenever you need them.... i want our friendship to be normal again!!!!!!!!!

later la.... no time to blog!!!